I cancelled my visits for this morning on account of the snow and am still a bit doubtful about this evening’s show with Shirley. I’ll see how I feel.
This morning at around 4am during a bathroom trip, I found a note under my door reminding me that I had not submitted a rent check for January. This I did this morning as yet at around eight am. I did make payments just before the yearend, but somehow forgot the most important one!

Due to these two unusual events, I ended up using the desktop early, printing and emailing, which then resulted in my surfing the news sites. So, here I am late at my diary, but here nevertheless.

At this point I want to make an addendum to my talking points. It is that within Existence Divine, after the secular stage and in my new belief state so to speak, I still give acknowledgement to the early taught concepts and references of my childhood.

I want to explain the importance of this phenomenon, to which I have referred some months ago. At that time I mentioned that I still experience the notion of ‘I know that my redeemer liveth’, from the hymn we used to sing in the various churches over the years (1959-69, Taunton Rd, First Christian Reformed of Toronto City and South Minster United in Calgary ca 1973-81).

At first I kind of dismissed these up welling memories, but there were quite a few. An other one would be ‘ love your neighbour as yourself and God above all. On these two commandments hangeth the whole law and the prophets.’ But, as these emerging memories persisted I noted that I was dealing with certain values that lie behind those familiar phrases.

I combined that with the fact that we know from the Old and New Testaments, that god concepts change. Moses is told at the burning bush that this is a new god and not the ‘El Shaddah’, from the mountain of Abram. In the prophets we find ‘the Ancient of days’ and some where else ‘the lord of lords’. Similar changes take place in other religions as came clear from my studies and talks over the years.

In trying to relate this notion of change from the old and yet staying connected to it, I combined that with the notion that Existence Divine reveals according to time, place, circumstance and people; and people can mean person.

So, when the old formulae emerge we can say that my situation is apparently such that these old notions are of relevance right now. And this could be that I am vulnerable now like I was then, when young as a child. After all, life can present us with surprises that are very challenging at times, making us feel vulnerable. That is why we need to retain those notions from our childhood and upbringing. They can mean valuable support in times of need.

In addition to this support there is the earlier mentioned aspect of value that such old taught notions hold and represent. This means that we have to dig a little deeper and ask ourselves; what is meant by ‘I know that my redeemer liveth’? What is conveyed here in the sense of value, intent and instruction?

You could translate this into: I am assured [know] that I am walking on my path as I should or meant to be [the redemption]. Or, to put it more colloquially ‘I know that I am living my life as I am meant to’ or ‘I know I am doing ok’.

The importance here is in the emergence of this assurance from within me, not originating from some one else. That means that I now have assimilated the old message of assurance, as I endeavour to walk my own path, making it as I go relating to the handed down values.
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