I’m at my station – tablet style – with the first laundry load churning away in the furnace room. There was a squatter in the washer and in the drier, but that did not stop me since the loads were cold to the touch.

It’s noisy outside this morning – the open windows no doubt and preparations for the Stampede Parade day tomorrow. Next load due at around ten to ten, as I better be early just in case.

Yesterday I finally wrote a letter to Tieneke, but I noticed that I had used ‘Kerk’ instead of ‘Klerk’ for their new address in the enclosed note, but the envelope had the correct designation. And I finally put into words – the letter kept – my reluctance about making a side trip to Switzerland later this summer. It is that both visits will be quite emotional and I don’t want to combine them in such a short trip.

This morning I was awake before six am, but felt still tired and stayed in bed drifting in and out of sleep until eight. During that time I tried once more to formulate my ‘belief statement’.

I have been working on this for several weeks and this morning a very short saying assembled slowly as I drifted in and out of sleep; 9:46am, time for that laundry trip. And at 10:19am I’m back having included a coffee break.

The mentioned short formulation I will note under Writings below.

My short formulation from this morning goes as follows:
“To bring conscious expression of Existence Divine into my life, is my aim.”

To bring conscious expression of Existence Divine into my life, is my aim.

This is akin to the formulation that I learned in childhood and as a youth, which says: “I seek to do the will of my Heavenly Father and serve Him (Her) in my life.”

The god-image of the ‘heavenly father’ is a more personable than ‘existence divine’, but as concepts they mean the same thing. Namely that there is a state of being that exceeds the human one, remaining a mystery – but knowable

This aspect of being ‘knowable’ is evident throughout the human record going back to its earliest beginnings and is also evident from the human traditions, as they have come to us, been preserved and are practiced.
<10:48am and time for the laundry shift change, which with lunch making it 11:36am, as I continue with the last dryer load due at ca.11:50am.

Continuing with the notions described above, I noticed during my break that my descriptions are becoming less wordy, more to the point, coming closer to what I aim to express. And, while this leaves me with a feeling of satisfaction, I also feel surprised at the convolution of this process to come to this stage of a ‘clear and direct’ expression of my conviction.

The implicit notion has not changed, but the process of bringing it to an objective and conveyable expression is much more difficult than I ever expected. Many a time I had the feeling that I had lost the earlier notions and insights, to only have them emerge again later, as I kept dealing with the subject matter.

All this searching then has emerged and been condensed into the above noted simple and short statement, which certainly deserves further elaboration.

My original problem was that I wanted to include those elaboration in the statement, but in the end I realised that it was ‘first the clear and direct statement’, then the explanation and elaboration. Paraphrasing Rabbi Hillel, I call this statement ‘The meaning of life in one breath,’ instead of the saying attributed to him: ‘Reciting the Torah standing on one leg’.
<00:45pm with editing.