No entry for yesterday! I was up late and then phoned Els, which took us an hour’s worth of catching up, making it too late to start on an entry. However, we had a pleasant conversation about family, mutual acquaintances and our own activities.

As we are getting older and our friends with us, we both agreed that health and wellbeing become more central in our daily activities, conversations and attention. I said to Els: “We have to learn to age.” It is no use trying to run away from it, some do so literally, nor should we rile against it.

We have to learn to age.

Aging is an experience process that can teaches us many things, if we open ourselves to it. And it does not have to stop us from pushing boundaries, albeit different ones from before, but why not try something new! As our bodies age, we are also being taught that our identity lies beyond the biological body and that there are possibly other ways of being.

Last Friday John I and had dinner downtown and afterwards went on to take in a CPO performance at the Art Centre’s Music Hall. As an aside: I don’t like using all those personal and company names for a venue that the tax payer funded.

The orchestra treated us well to compositions of Van Beethoven and Mahler’s 6Th symphony. The first peaceful one was offset by the very conflicted second piece. It almost seems to foreshadow Mahler’s demise and the tragedy that defined the last decade of his life. In contrast, the deaf Beethoven composed something very peaceful. It was his First Piano Concert with Stephen Hough at the wing, which he played exceptionally.

Saturday and Sunday were spent as usual, except that the weather was so nice as to invite me for an extra Sunday aft walk and a Thai Latte at Savour!

Sunday [laundry load change, next due at 10am.] evening I made a Left_Hand composition, which I’ll includes with today’s entry. Its text says: “Existence Divine includes all there is”, but I used free script to write it, making it painted text if you like. For example, the word ‘includes’ wraps the earlier word ‘Existence Divine’, morphing straight text into an image, enhancing word through form.

This is also practised in classical Arabic script writings, which makes it so interesting with form conveying feeling and value, which the mere alphabetic letter cannot except when read out loud or recited!

Yesterday I had an interesting insight about human destiny. It was really quite simple: “It is human destiny to explore the realm of humanity expressing all its possibilities.” In short human destiny is to be human. This, because what we humans contribute to existence is unique and valuable.

To think that we should try to escape from being human and our ’lowly’ nature is a misunderstanding of what humanity is all about. Being human is the very purpose of our being and to make the most of it in a process of discovery in Existence Divine.

It is human destiny to explore the realm of humanity expressing all its possibilities.

This morning I had a totally different awareness. In the past I have reported in these entries that I would experience a teaching from my youth or even my childhood.

For example I wrote several years ago that the saying ‘I know that my redeemer liveth’ would emerge into my awareness. This saying was a snippet out of a hymn that I knew in Dutch as well as English. It refers to the belief that Jesus Christ is the redeemer of your life as a ‘sinful’ - imperfect - human being.

This morning I was surprised by the following saying: ‘Existence Divine is mijn toeverlaat’, in English: ‘Existence Divine is my refuge’. This bubbling up awareness surprised me, almost startling me. I realised right away that it meant the full acceptance of Existence Divine as a part of my old taught value system.

The newly acquired insight of 2006 had become united with the old taught value from my child hood and youth.
[Back at 10:40am, after finding a broken down dryer at 10am.]

When thinking over this experience of a totally unexpected emergence of such a familiar old value of assurance I came to the following conclusion.

When you retain old taught values without discarding them, but just let them remain for what they were and meant to you, then with time a connection will develop with newly attained insights.

The early teachings will become the foundation for the newly attained insights and so share and pass the early feeling values to inspire and support the new belief and value system.

Existence Divine includes all there is!

Such a process takes time as it did for me in this case of Existence Divine, an insight that I experienced in the Spring of 2006! I did accept that insight and meditated on it, affirmed it and worked with it regularly.

However, I was always hesitant about trusting it to the full extend, kind of in the sense of ‘maybe there is something more or else’. This reluctance was strongest in the case of making this claim about ‘Existence Divine’ in public, over and against others.

If and when you claim something to be of value and reference, then you want to be sure that it is true and valuable enough to be used as a guide, for others as well as myself.
<10:58am, lunch.

With this new emergence of Existence Divine being a refuge I feel assured that this concept is of general validity, worthy of trust as a guiding principle. And that guiding principle is as the accompanying image says: “Existence Divine includes all there is!”
<8:15pm.
P.S: The dryer broke down and delayed me in finishing my laundry as well as in completing my entry! Existence Divine is a mix obviously!
<8:38pm.