Picking up from where I left off yesterday, I now continue with my description of getting in touch with my feminine aspects as a male, which means mainly getting to know my feelings and giving them play in my daily affairs.
Since I had repressed my feelings quite drastically as mentioned, it meant also getting in touch with my personal unconscious or shadow as Jung called that. This I did be means of using my left hand in ordinary daily tasks such as cutting bread, brushing my hair and so on. The most productive activity for my was my Left_Hand art work, which I mentioned and is posted on this website; see my home page.
The most productive activity for my was my Left_Hand art work, which I mentioned and is posted on this website; see my home page.
Over time I have worked out a position for myself that I have not reported on earlier. This, because it is only over the last few years that this viewpoint has firmed up within me as valid. I hold certain positions or views for a long time, while testing them as to applicability and functionality.
In this particular case the view and understanding that took shape within me - almost like a sculptor working away at an unformed natural stone - is that the fully integrated human being is one who has moved on passed the limits set by ‘nature’ and society.
This integrated state can be achieved by making oneself aware of such set limits and then superseding them by taking conscious counter measures. This raises the awareness level - doing things with the other hand for example. This in turn, gives one a chance to notice and think of various relating aspects and implications. This way you can chip away at old habits - of masculinity in my case.
This activity has been called “Inner Work” by James Hillman - a late Jungian annalist from Texas, USA. Actually I have come to the conclusion that religious practices all have this kind of inner work, but aimed at a different objective or outcome.
Even the work of a researcher or professional in general could be so classified. It all depends what we give our attention to and to what it is that we apply our energies and efforts, all properly ethically informed, hopefully.
And, once conscious the experiences are available for the process of integration that takes one to a personal identity that is no longer gender based.
To return to the physical transgender processes, they offer a means to actually experience the other gender through this physical transition. However, that is not an easy way and will still require the integration of the separate gender experiences.
This physical change, however does ensure that the other gender aspects of being a human are experienced indeed and thus made conscious. And, once conscious the experiences are available for the process of integration that takes one to a personal identity that is no longer gender based.
I hold that position on integration as something worth pursuing, because I belief that such an identity allows me to understand better what existence in the realm of humanity is about and how to further proceed in its development.
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