This morning I awoke after having had two powerful dreams separated by a midnight stroll to the toilet. In both dreams I seek through all kinds of physical scenes and scenarios with people working away absorbed with their own activities. However, I am trying to find my way out of this, but end up in one situation after another, seeking but not finding.
What am I looking for in these two dreams? ‘For the way out and also some comprehension about what is going on’. This is what I would say now in retrospect, recalling all the processes and interactions I was involved in, looking for a way out of this incomprehensible confusion of activities as I experienced that in the two dreams.
I remember one specific case. I ask a woman saying: ’Don’t you have a map of this place?’ ‘Yes, there should be one’, she replies and goes off looking for one, never to return and I continue my ’circumambulation‘! This term just pops into my mind now, but I have used it a few days ago, when saying that my ’circumambulations’ have come to an end! How interesting!
That is, though my experience in the dreams is nothing but confusion, I am not confused myself …
Now this fits very well with the feeling I am left with, as I awake from these two dreams. I don’t feel in a state of confusion, but rather I have a sense that something has become resolved after all this to and fro in these two dreams. That is, though my experience in the dreams is nothing but confusion, I am not confused myself, but awake with a sense of having resolved something as a result of the dreaming processes.
As I sat at the edge of my bed, contemplating and letting all these processes sink in, the word ‘coherence’ emerged into my awareness. Coherence was something I was critiqued about years ago in relation to some essay writing that I did. My Mount Royal English courses steered me right in this regard. But, with respect to the recent attempts at formulating ‘My Belief Framework’, I do need to aim for coherence and clarity.
Yesterday at the Palliser, Dorothy made me an unexpected complement about the ‘clarity’ of my ‘Jesus The Man’ essay, which she read on my website. Talks category. So, I know I can do it, but the subject of a comprehensive belief framework is far more complicated than my ‘Jesus the man’ essay was. For it, I had many sources to draw from.
That is not the case for my present endeavour to formulate the said framework that would be comprehensive enough to include today’s beliefs and value systems of humankind. Not too much source material here, except for the differing systems of belief and value, albeit about which we now know a lot more.
The confusion is behind me and I now have to concentrate on expressing my views and insights with clarity and coherence!
So, I proceed with the dream’s message that I have worked something through, even though that process was dominated by confusion and disorientation. The confusion is behind me and I now have to concentrate on expressing my views and insights with clarity and coherence! Certainly a message of encouragement after a life time of searching and seeking! May the results be worth the work and wait:-)!
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