Have been lying and feeling low a bit over the last number of days. I keep putting things off, whereas I could easily do them. However, I’m not dysfunctional. Yesterday I met up with Rene and Iddle at Good Earth after I’d dropped my shoes off at the shoemaker on 17th Ave. There I also stopped at the ‘Ten Thousand Villages’ a few stores over, which is closing by mid April. From there I walked over to the Library where they will hold last weekend’s Globe and Mail for me. That issue was sold out in the stores late last Saturday.

Have been lying and feeling low a bit over the last number of days. I keep putting things off, whereas I could easily do them. However, I’m not dysfunctional.

But what is not functioning is my writing, which I feel I should be doing. I am searching for my voice from which to do this writing. Voice really means my inner conviction, perspective and value framework to bring my point across. ‘What is the aim of my writing?’ ‘Who and what is it that I want to address?’ ‘From which conviction do I want to write?’

Up to now I thought that the ‘exposition’ was the style to chose using the voice of the explainer, teacher or conveyor. That position had no energy for me; not like what I felt when writing my essay “Jesus the Man”. At that time I was well motivated to get my point across, namely that Jesus must have had his challenges as a man, trying to discover his career or calling.

But this morning I intuited a new aspect: ‘a narrative that validates where we came from and guides our future’.

At that time I had many established sources to refer to and inform my writing. Now I do have an aim, but just my own convictions and researches to sustain my argument. I guess I feel uncomfortable about being my own authority in this situation. It is, that I want to formulate a narrative that is valid for modern humanity, while maintaining the integrity of existing religions.

But this morning I intuited a new aspect: ‘a narrative that validates where we came from and guides our future’. What is also emerging with me is a sense of urgency for such a formulation - as others attempt like wise - to address our global sense of disorientation. It is that we know we need to deal with our planet wide diversity and yet are held back by a need to preserve our identity. And if we all had the same identity, our diversity would be lost!

This conundrum can only be resolved if we honour the value frameworks of our human heritage and combine those with our science based newly acquired understanding of our world. In it, this human diversity enriches our modern existence and enhances our survival as a species.

But, diversity requires tolerance of the other, which is a ‘treasure hard to attain’ as the Holy Grail story shows and the Mythologist Joseph Campbell reminded us. This tolerance goal is the one we need to work on and a good narrative will facilitate the process aiming to achieve that.
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